Mr. Rogers

“MOST OF US, I BELIEVE, ADMIRE STRENGTH. IT’S SOMETHING WE TEND TO RESPECT IN OTHERS, DESIRE FOR OURSELVES, AND WISH FOR OUR CHILDREN. SOMETIMES THOUGH, I WONDER IF WE CONFUSE STRENGTH AND OTHER WORDS–LIKE AGGRESSION AND EVEN VIOLENCE. REAL STRENGTH IS NEITHER MALE NOR FEMALE; BUT IS, QUITE SIMPLY, ONE OF THE FINEST CHARACTERISTICS THAT ANY HUMAN BEING CAN POSSESS.”

Mr. Rogers always says it perfectly. This is so fitting in this world of ours today where there are so many bad things happening everywhere.

I wish this for my daughter more than anything. I want her to know real strength. I want her to know that real courage is being brave and doing the right thing. I want her to know kindness and to be kind to all people. And above all love.

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Patience Is A Virtue I Struggle With

“LOOK BACK TO WHERE YOU CAME FROM AND LET YOURSELF FEEL PROUD ABOUT YOUR PROGRESS. YOU. ARE. KILLING. IT.”

Don’t forget to be patient with yourself. Don’t forget that our bodies move in slow motion, change takes time. Trust me, I know that it can be so frustrating to work so hard and not be seeing any changes in the mirror. Whatever it is about ourselves that we are trying to change, WE are often the last ones to notice and we definitely are our toughest critic. Why is it that we get so bound to our insecurities that when others do compliment us we brush them off, they truly fall on deaf ears.

I can speak from experience that it is so hard to be working your butt off (literally) and still look in the mirror every day and not like what you see. Just want to give up because the change just doesn’t seem to be happening. But I can promise you that one day you will look and things will be different.

I have what I lovingly refer to as a “fat person’s brain”. I don’t see myself as I truly look and although it is much better than it was 10 years ago I don’t know if it will ever be the way it should. I would give compliments and just brush them off. I thought people were just being nice to me because they knew I was trying to be healthier and lose weight and so they were just being nice even though it wasn’t true. Now I knew my body was changing some because my clothes were getting baggy and I had to buy new ones and then more time would go buy and I would have to again. But it wasn’t until we had a bonfire in the winter to lite a huge mountain of Christmas trees on fire that I really got a glimpse of myself. The fire was enormous and someone took a picture and put it on Facebook and I was looking at it and then noticed the silhouette of the person in front of the flames. I thought wait, my scarf was hanging down all lopsided like that one is on the person in the picture. And wait, those look just like my boots. Then the realization hit, holy cow, that is me?!?! That is what I look like?!?!

I don’t see this to pat myself on the back because I looked so good. I just share it because it was a huge moment for me. I got a glimpse of what I actually looked like and it was so different from the person I used to be that I was shocked. It took time for me to realize it was me I was looking at!

So I am saying this for you (and for me). Don’t go beating yourself up again because you don’t feel like you are seeing the progress you want fast enough. Remember that for each day you keep it up you are making a difference, change is happening. The human body cannot and does not change fast, the change is so slow that we often don’t really realize it until we stumble upon pictures from the past. OR for me, pictures of the present.

All that matters is that I remember that if I am giving it my all and I am really making an effort than even what feels like the tiniest of baby steps really are taking me in the right direction. Progress is happening. Just be patient.

Unique

“NO ONE IS YOU AND THAT IS YOUR SUPERPOWER”

I am blessed in ways that are different from how you are blessed. I was given weaknesses that are not the same from yours and maybe we are grateful we were not given each others. I have also been given strengths that are different than the strengths that you have. We all bring something else to the table. Somethings we were blessed to be given or that came easy to us and others that we really had to work so hard to gain. We are all struggling daily to over come things, to not compare ourselves to others. I struggle at times wishing I had something that you may have or wish I didn’t have things that I do. But then I just give myself a good talking to and remind myself that no one is me and that is my superpower. And no one is you and that is your superpower. And that is awesome.

Happiness

IF YOU WANT TO BE HAPPY YOU MUST BECOME A HAPPINESS SEEKER. YOU HAVE TO THINK ABOUT HAPPINESS, SEIZE THE HAPPINESS AND BELIEVE WITH ALL YOUR HEART THAT YOU DESERVE HAPPINESS.

-BRYANT MCGILL

Think of happiness as a personality trait. And like all personality traits you are either born with it or you can become that way.

Sometimes happiness is a hard one for me. It is something I have to work at daily. Lots of days my anxiety gets the better of me, or my 2 year old having a day (week) of the terrible twos gets the better of me. But it is something I am working on.

I have started trying to at the end of every day thinking of what things made me happy that day. Some people do a gratitude journal, but honestly I am too lazy, so I just think about it in my head. Some days I have to think really really hard to think of something good, something that made me happy that day. Honestly, some days the answer is, well everyone is still alive! And that’s ok. But for me this will be a lifelong journey, finding happiness everyday. It definitely gets easier as I really work to find that happiness everyday. I am truly trying to believe with all my heart that I really do DESERVE happiness.

 

FIT-ish

FIT-ish: Someone who likes the idea of being fit, but equally enjoys food.

I laughed SO hard when I read this! I thought this is SO me! Anyone else out there that can relate?? I love working out, I want my body to be healthy but I also REALLY love food. Good food, not so good for you food and treats. Oh I love it all.

Luckily you can have it both ways. I try to get some type of exercise in 4-5 days a week and I also let myself eat just about whatever I want. Now don’t get me wrong, I do eat things in moderation and I try to find a balance. I try not to just eat junk all day long and nothing healthy. I kind of go meal by meal and if one is not quite as good for me as it should be I try really hard to make the next one healthy. Or if one day isn’t so great because of family things or parties or all you can eat buffets or bbqs then I make sure the next day is a great one food wise. And in all honesty, I usually eat a treat twice a day. For me that works. It isn’t something big, after lunch it’s often just a piece of chocolate or like today I just ate a piece of double chocolate zucchini bread. And if I don’t feel like I need anything after lunch then great. We often have ice cream or banana nice cream after dinner. For my brain I need that little bit of sweetness to tell it that I am done eating. I definitely notice a difference when I don’t, I just want to keep snacking!

It is true though that you can’t out exercise a bad diet. There are days when I splurge a little too much and think if I was better at this self control thing I wouldn’t have to exercise so much. But most days it is good, I have found a happy medium that works for me. So don’t listen to those people that say sugar is evil and you can never have a single thing that tastes good. Ever. And you just have to exercise all day long and live off of broccoli and chicken. Boo to them. Find your moderation, what works for you. If you need any tips let me know. It’s been about 10 years now I think that I have been doing things like this and have kept 95 pounds off. It can be done!

I Didn’t Realize It Had Been So Long…

Wow, this summer and this year are flying by. I had no idea that the last time I posted was the end of May!! Between family camping trips, multiple baby blessings, the 4th of July and tons of family get togethers and birthday parties and making and taste testing wedding cake life has been a little crazy.

In the midst of all of that I have been trying to find new ways to be healthy. I have been getting bored with the same old workout videos and was struggling to be motivated to workout so I have been on the search. I used to play basketball, a lot of basketball. But the past few years have mostly been playing volleyball. Well a friend invited me to come join a weekly pick up game with other women and even though I was really nervous I have been loving it! It has been so fun to be playing again, even if I am a little rusty. And even though the first week I thought I was going to die! I was sucking gas so bad!! I played a lot better than I thought I would but oh man. Working out at home is a lot different than sprinting up and down the basketball court. But it has been fun. Some weeks I just feel off but some weeks I have been pretty happy with how I have done. Some of the other women’s highschoolers and their friends have been coming this summer. This last week there was a 6’1″ girl who probably had at least 30 pounds, if not more on me. It was tough, she could shoot extremely well from down low all the way out to the 3 point line. It was fun though to have to play a little rough and my bring out my competitiveness a little bit more! Mentally and physically it has been just what I needed!

I have also felt like I was in a funk with this blog. I have been struggling to know what to write and maybe just over thinking the whole thing. But I am going to make a better effort here too! I have missed this and missed you all!

Too Old?

I saw this quote today and it really got me thinking…

You’re never too old to set another goal or to dream a new dream.

C.S. Lewis

Now I know I am not that old, 36 is the new 20 right? Right?!?! Come on, make me feel a little better here! But I lately have been wondering what my goal or dream is now.

I lost a ton of weight and have kept it off.  Check.

I completed a 100 mile bike race and beat my goal time. Check.

Got married. Check.

Had a baby. Check.

Bought a house. Check.

I have accomplished a lot of things in my life but am start to feel the itch of what now? I need something to be working towards. So help me out here…what are some of your dreams or goals that you are working towards? Or are you like me and not sure what you want to be doing right now?

I did think of one thing and it’s pie crust. Now don’t laugh. Yes I went to culinary school, yes I have been baking and cooking since I was 10 but pie crust is and always has been something that terrifies me. I LOVE pie crust when it is amazing and flaky but how many pies have you actually eaten with an amazing crust? I can probably count them on one hand. I usually eat the filling out and leave the crust…because why waste calories on something that doesn’t taste good right? So anyway, I told Rob the other day that I want to perfect the pie crust. But that might be a goal that will pack all the weight back on me! But still, I think I am going to do it.

But I need something else. Something to make me feel like I have a purpose every day and something I am working towards for myself. So this is just my little reminder to you that you are never too old. Whether you are 20 or 60, it doesn’t matter. Find something to work for, find something that you want and figure out how to get it! Fingers crossed I can find my next thing quick…